PDF Novel

I'll be posting a PDF link to my novel "The Land of Lost Dreams" very soon. I think it'll be easier and more convenient than posting separate chapters on the blog. I suppose I'll post it on my facebook and myspace pages too.

I'd have posted it now, but I want to submit it first. I'm finding the search for editors and agents to be extremely aggravating. I'd much rather be writing or doing something productive. It doesn't help that I finally realized it's a waste of time and money to submit to major editors and publishing houses. As a result of my ignorance I spent way too much time sifting through candidates. I've come to the conclusion that I should limit my submissions to small houses that accept unsolicited, unagented proposals and to literary agents themselves.

I'm not looking forward to going back to the library to look for agents instead of reading and writing. It's like being at a candy store w/out being able to eat the candy. And to top things off all I get to eat is liver. I'm starting to think I should have been an engineer or computer programmer or something.

I really wish my high school English teacher wouldn't have "inspired" me to write. I almost want to go back and say: "God damnit! Why did you have to inspire me? Why couldn't you have been like all my Berkeley professors and have made reading and writing the most boring, anal-retentive, politically correct, agenda driven bull-shit in the realm of human creation! Not to mention, a completely useless skill in the real world. Now I'm stuck slaving away in some godforsaken public school, in some godforesaken city while I look for editors/agents in my spare time. Why couldn't you have told me what the real world is really like?! Most people suck and are utterly hopeless! There's nothing I can do to change that, so I might as well get mine like everyone is doing before this shit-house of a civilization we've created goes up in flames!"

Oh well, I'll quit my ranting and get back to my search.

FYI: The book isn't that cynical. Its just brutally honest. There's some measure of hope for humanity. It's just that hope has a price like anything else. It's going to cost. There's hope for humanity itself, but that doesn't mean there's hope for every single person. Some of us a just fucked in one way or the other, for one reason or another. It usually has something to do with the nature of our dreams.